When the sun shines on your skin, do you feel warm?

The past few weeks have been a blur.


I need to live more.



Instead of sitting


on my bed... with my headphones in my ear and a book in my hands.







I just need to live.


I want to feel the sun on my skin and the wind in my hair and the beautiful soreness after a whole day out in the fresh air. I want to feel the sweat from a hot day on my neck and a friend's arm brushing against mine as we walk through a grassy green park. I want to feel the laughter and the happiness of swinging high into the air. I want to feel the recklessness that comes with jumping off at the highest point. I want to feel the excitement of staying up all night, sleeping in the grass of a friend's backyard, looking up at the stars, talking about every dream we have. I want to feel the cool air of a night in July. I want to feel the cold water of a pool at night on my bare feet. I want to feel the joy of a carefree adventure, all on foot, with no set destination or goal besides finding something fun to do in this windy little valley.

I want summer.


And I "wish" we could just leave the past in the past and just be friends again. I know you know who you are.