I am standing in a hurricane

I want to go back to the Victorian era in London. The language was beautiful, the customs were endearing, the men were polite and sweet, and the clothing was lovely. We have taken too much for granted...

I wish when I am older that I do not change too much. I want to be able to remember how I was now and think... I may have been younger and a bit childish, but I am still the same at the core. I am just older and matured and experienced. I don't want to lose my hope and adventure and spontaneity and passion. I don't want to settle for anything less than what I really want. I don't want to do that and then grow old and regret my whole life when I could have made it exactly the life I had always wanted. Last year, when my parents got divorced, I started to lose any sense of a hope. I had nothing and I felt like nothing so I did not try at anything that was set before me. But then something clicked within me, and I stopped myself. I became a stronger and better version of myself. Big changes and experiences really do help to transform. It is so true. I am so filled with determination now. And I finally have a happiness with who I am becoming. I'm proud of it. I wish more people would just get over caring what other people think about them. It is so heavy, and without it, I feel too light and free and so me.