Saturday, October 18, 2008

She sits in the dark


I love Autumn so much. Why, you ask? Because it is beautiful. It is cool enough for sweaters and scarves, but you can still wear shorts. The trees and flowers are every color you could ever imagine. The sun shines in a different hue. The world feels wonderful and so immensely filled with love and possibility. I couldn't ask for more. Well, except to live some place where it looks more like this season. And somewhere closer to all of my family: my grandparents, my aunt and uncle, my lovely baby cousin, and my great grandmother. I have never been one to really have a sense of a big and welcoming family... but lately I really miss the family that I do have. I wish I got to see them more often. I cannot wait until Thanksgiving when I will go up there for the holiday and be able to photograph my little Allison. She is so big now! She makes the best expressions. I am so excited. Even though I am almost fifteen years older than that little girl, I hope when she gets older she will look up to me and look forward to when I visit. I will teach her about life and take her on wonderful adventures. She will be like the little sister I never had.

Today I was laying on my couch, all alone in my house. My mind was running on overdrive and then something just went off inside of me. I am going to do this. I am going to live my life and be happy and successful. I will see the world and meet wonderful people. And I will move as many mountains as it takes.

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