I will miss the grass and the trees and everything green. I will miss the way the sun lights up the leaves during the golden hour. I will miss the flowers that bloom all through the year. I will miss you and you and most definitely you. I will miss the memories and the past that all live here and only here. I will miss waking up to the scary fan noises in the middle of the night. I will miss opening my eyes in the morning and seeing the sun shine through my window, lighting up each particle of dust in my room in such a beautiful way. I will miss this frustrating place, even though I know I hate it deep down. I will miss having the chance to make the same mistakes with you again. I will miss seeing people I know no matter where I go. I will miss the sleepless nights on the bed where my feet hang off. I will miss the weather that makes no sense. I will miss this house where I have lived longer than any other place in my life. I will miss all of the annoying people I dislike. And I will miss the ones I love, the ones I enjoy, the ones who make me laugh, and the ones who shoved their way into my heart when I wasn't looking.

But most of all I will miss what could have been and what I could have had.

I am looking at this as an adventure, rather than a completely negative situation. People could know me as something other than the shy, quiet girl. People could know me as I truly am, instead of this picture they have in their head and can't get out even though I have changed. This is a chance to experience something new, not just a chance to lose all that I know. I will learn. I will experience. I will meet new people. I will grow.

This could be a good thing for me.