You don't need this disease

Do you even realize how much love I have for this weather? Oh, this beautiful cold. The brisk air makes me feel awake and, more importantly, alive. I like being able to see my breath come out of my warm mouth in cold, short bursts. I like my face becoming pink and my fingers slowly warming up in my lovely mittens. I like knowing that there is a new beginning around the corner, which means change, and really... I love change.

I don't think I can fully explain this tight feeling within my chest. This longing to break free from this cage I am currently trapped in. A longing that will soon be gone in a little over two years. The freedom of being on my own, the scary beauty of it, as well. The happiness that will be living in Washington. The joy from the never-ending foggy days and cold weather. The likeliness for rain higher than a sunny day, and snow isn't such a far chance either. My future gives me butterflies and a lump in my throat.

I wish eating organically did not cost so much money. It really sickens me that eating healthy is more costly than eating fast food every day of your life. This, America, is why we are an obese country. I want to be healthy and I want a fruitful and thriving life. I need to start by sticking to my exercising instead of sporadically going for runs and bike rides. I always feel so fulfilled afterward. I need to stop being so lazy.

I'm too ahead of myself. It makes me sad. I am all too ready to be done with this chapter of my life.