When I think of all that has happened in 2008, I want to scream and laugh and cry and smile and yell. I look back on this year and I am full of bittersweet feelings. It has been the fastest and hardest year of my life, yet also the most important in so many ways. I learned who I was and learned what I don't want to be. I learned what I want and what I don't want. I had many crazy experiences: Firsts, lasts, and eveything in between. I met people who changed my life. I met people I never want to leave my life. I met people who walked right in and walked right back out, but left me with so much that I could never know how to thank them for. I met people that will always be in the back of my mind. I met people I will always wonder about. I met people I growed and learned to love. I met people who made me laugh until my sides were aching. I met people who made me cry, gave me the tears I thought I had lost when 2007 ended so long ago. I met people who showed me why I hate humanity. I met people who showed me why I should still have some hope. I met people who taught me about myself, things I never knew about me, things I never knew could exist within me. It was an insane part of my life that will be with me for a long, long time. It was far from perfect, as far as it could possibly be. And that is why I loved it. No matter how horrible it got... I just can't explain it. I needed those bad times. And I needed the good and wonderful times as well. All I know is what I can now do in 2009 to have an even better year. What I need to do with myself. What I need to change about myself. It's hard to explain, hard to even put into words at all. I am just so anxious and excited for this brand new year that is being opened up and just as excited for the brand new me.
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